Spiritual Journey

She met me where civilization ends and the path begins.
Her perfect body seduced and lured me far into the wilderness.
Far along the path she turned into a panther and attacked me.
She tore flesh from my left arm.
With the adrenalin rush from fear I reached and seized her throat hard.
She vanished.
And I was left all alone in the wild, injured, to begin my spiritual journey.

A passage from 'Autobiography of a Yogi'

"Years ago, before you were born, I asked my superior officer-your father-to give me a week's leave from my Gorakhpur duties in order to visit my guru in Benares. Your father ridiculed my plan.

"'Are you going to become a religious fanatic?' he inquired.
'Concentrate on your office work if you want to forge ahead.'

"Sadly walking home along a woodland path that day, I met your father in a palanquin. He dismissed his servants and conveyance, and fell into step beside me. Seeking to console me, he pointed out the advantages of striving for worldly success. But I heard him listlessly. My heart was repeating: 'Lahiri Mahasaya! I cannot live without seeing you!'

"Our path took us to the edge of a tranquil field, where the rays of the late afternoon sun were still crowning the tall ripple of the wild grass. We paused in admiration. There in the field, only a few yards from us, the form of my great guru suddenly appeared! 

"'Bhagabati, you are too hard on your employee!' His voice was resonant in our astounded ears. He vanished as mysteriously as he had come.

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I love the idea that this kind of saint can walk the earth, but why haven't I met one in such a dramatic way? Am I really not ready?  How many years of meditation will it take?

JinpaLight

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Wisdom

Sometimes I want to cry
Poor me.
It's my job.
It's my finances.
It's my family.
It's my friends.

But what is the common thread?
Is it me?

What good does it do to mope?
But is it any better to beat myself into a fuzzy "happines" stupor by walking around pretending to be positive? Maybe pretending is the wrong word.

Maybe it is really more appropriate to say that I am creating positive energy by actively looking deeper at all things and all situations for the positive and engaging them or choosing to participate in a positive way.

I'll try that on for a day or so.

God

It's all me.

It's all up to me.
Look at this blog.
No followers, but me. No comments. Who would know if my light stops shining tomorrow?

It's only me and me. I'm just here for me right now and that has to be OK.