Saturday, March 31, 2012

Why I like Thich Nhat Hanh's writing.

In the diamond that cuts through illusion which are commentaries on the prajna paramita diamond Sutra.

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What you think Subhuti? Does a bodhisattva create a serene and beautiful go to field? No world on one why to create a serene and beautiful Buddha field is not in fact creating a serene and beautiful Buddha. That is why it is called creating a serene and beautiful Buddha field.

This has been explained by many in equally difficult to grasp translations. This is much more understandable.

"Upon attaining enlightenment, all Buddhists and bodhisattvas open a new world for people on the path of realization who want to study and practice with that. Every Buddha creates a pure land as a practice center. A pure land is a fresh, beautiful place where people are happy and peaceful. Creating a pure land is called setting up a serene and beautifulBuddha field. Teachers and students work together to make such a place beautiful, pleasant, and fresh, so that many people can go there to live and practice. The greater their power of awakening and piece the more pleasant is there pure land.

Amitabha Buddha has a pure land in the Western Paradise. Akshobya Buddha has a place called wondrous joy.After a period of practice, if you have some attainment and peace you may wish to share them with others and establish a small practice community. But this should always be done in the spirit of formlessness do not be bound by the practice center you establish.To create a serene and beautiful Buddha field is not in fact creating a serene and beautiful Buddha field means to do so in the spirit of formlessness. Do not let yourself be devoured by your Buddha field or you you will suffer. Do not allow yourself to be burnt out in the process of setting up a practice center.

Thursday, March 22, 2012

A Walking Meditation - by Thich Nhat Hanh

A Walking Meditation - Thich Nhat Hanh
Your Steps Are Most Important

What activity is most important in your life? To pass an exam, get a car or a house, or get a promotion in your career? There are so many people who have passed exams, who have bought cars and houses, who have gotten promotions, but still find themselves without peace of mind, without joy, and without happiness. The most important thing in life is to find this treasure, and then to share it with other people and with all beings.

In order to have peace and joy, you must succeed in having peace within each of your steps. Your steps are the most important thing. They decide everything. I am lighting a stick of incense and joining my palms together as a lotus bud to pray for your success.

You Can Do It

Walking meditation is practicing meditation while walking. It can bring you joy and peace while you practice it. Take short steps in complete relaxation; go slowly with a smile on your lips, with your heart open to an experience of peace. You can feel truly at ease with yourself. Your steps can be those of the healthiest, most secure person on earth. All sorrows and worries can drop away while you are walking. To have peace of mind, to attain self-liberation, learn to walk in this way. It is not difficult. You can do it. Anyone can do it who has some degree of mindfulness and a true intention to be happy.

Going Without Arriving

In our daily lives, we usually feel pressured to move ahead. We have to hurry. We seldom ask ourselves where it is that we must hurry to.

When you practice walking meditation, you go for a stroll. You have no purpose or direction in space or time. The purpose of walking meditation is walking meditation itself. Going is important, not arriving. Walking meditation is not a means to an end; it is an end. Each step is life; each step is peace and joy. That is why we don't have to hurry. That is why we slow down. We seem to move forward, but we don't go anywhere; we are not drawn by a goal. Thus we smile while we are walking.

Trouble-Free Steps

In our daily life, our steps are burdened with anxieties and fears. Life itself seems to be a continuous chain of insecure feelings, and so our steps lose their natural easiness.

Our earth is truly beautiful. There is so much graceful, natural scenery along paths and roads around the earth! Do you know how many dirt lanes there are, lined with bamboo, or winding around scented rice fields? Do you know how many forest paths there are, paved with colorful leaves, offering cool and shade? They are all available to us, yet we cannot enjoy them because our hearts are not trouble-free, and our steps are not at ease.

Walking meditation is learning to walk again with ease. When you were about a year old, you began to walk with tottering steps. Now, in practicing walking meditation you are learning to walk again. However, after a few weeks of practice, you will be able to step solidly, in peace and comfort. I am writing these lines to assist you in doing that. I wish you success.

Shaking Off the Burden of Worries

If I had the Buddha's eyes and could see through everything, I could discern the marks of worry and sorrow you leave in your footprints after you pass, like the scientist who can detect tiny living beings in a drop of pond water with a microscope. Walk so that your footprints bear only the marks of peaceful joy and complete freedom. To do this, you have to learn to let go – let go of your sorrows, let go of your worries. That is the secret of walking meditation.

This World Contains All the Wonders of the Pure Land

To have peace and joy and inner freedom, you need to learn how to let go of your sorrows and worries, the elements that create unhappiness. First of all, notice that this world contains all the wonders you could expect to find in the Buddha Land. It is only because of our veil of sorrows and worries that we cannot always see these wonders.

I always think that I like this world even better than I would the Pure Land because I like what this world offers: lemon trees, orange trees, banana trees, pine trees, apricot trees, and willow trees. Some people say that in the Pure Land there are valuable lotus ponds, seven-gem trees, and roads paved with gold, and that there are special celestial birds. I don't think I would like these very much. I would rather not walk on roads paved with gold and silver. I wouldn't even use roads that were lined with marble here on earth. Dirt roads with meadows on both sides are my favorite; I love pebbles and leaves covering the ground. I love bushes, streams, bamboo fences, and ferries.

When I was a young novice, I told my Master, 'If the Pure Land doesn't have lemon trees, then I don't want to go.' He shook his head and smiled. Maybe he thought I was a stubborn youngster. However, he did not say that I was right or wrong. Later when I realized that both the world and the Pure Land come from the mind, I was very happy. I was happy since I knew that lemon trees and star-fruit trees exist also in the Pure Land, with dirt roads and green grass on all sides.

I knew that if I kept my eyes open in mindfulness and my steps at ease, I could find my Pure Land. That is why I do not let a single day pass without practicing walking meditation.

The Seal of an Emperor

Choose a nice road for your practice, along the shore of a river, in a park, on the flat roof of a building, in the woods, or along a bamboo fence. Such places are ideal, but they are not essential. I know there are people who practice walking meditation in reformation camps, even in small prison cells.

It is best if the road is not too rough or too steep. Slow down and concentrate on your steps. Be aware of each move. Walk straight ahead with dignity, calm, and comfort. Consciously make an imprint on the ground as you step. Walk as the Buddha would. Place your foot on the surface of the earth the way an emperor would place his seal on a royal decree.

A royal decree can bring happiness or misery to people. It can shower grace on them or it can ruin their lives. Your steps can do the same. If your steps are peaceful, the world will have peace. If you can take one peaceful step, you can take two. You can take one hundred and eight peaceful steps.

A Lotus Flower Blooms Beneath Each Step

When an artist or a sculptor creates a picture or a statue of Buddha sitting upon a lotus flower, it is not just to express his reverence towards the Buddha. The artist must above all want to show the Buddha's state of mind as he sits: the state of complete peace, complete bliss. We all sit several times a day, but few of us can sit in peace and with ease, few of us can sit majestically like the Buddha. Most of us get restless after a while, as if we were sitting on hot coals. The Buddha may sit on the grass or on a rock, but he looks as serene as he would look sitting on a lotus flower.

When I first entered the monastery, my master taught me to observe this thought just before sitting: 'Sitting with my back straight, I wish all beings may be seated on the platform of enlightenment, their hearts freed from all illusion and mistaken views.' Only after I said that would I slowly sit down. That is the way to learn to sit like a Buddha.

I have a message for students of Pure Land Buddhism: Sit on a Lotus Throne right now, at this moment; do not wait until you get to the Pure Land. Be reborn on a lotus flower in each present moment. Don't wait until you face death. If you can experience rebirth on a lotus flower now, if you can sit on a lotus flower now – then you won't have any doubt about the existence of the Pure Land. The same is true for walking. The Infant Buddha is often portrayed taking his first seven steps on earth, causing a lotus flower to appear in each of his footsteps. We should all cause a lotus flower to bloom with each of our peaceful steps. Next time you practice walking meditation, please try visualizing a lotus flower opening as your feet touch the ground, like a newborn Buddha. Don't feel unworthy of this vision. If your steps are serene, they are worthy of this flowering. You are a Buddha, and so is everyone else. I didn't make that up. It was the Buddha himself who said so. He said that all beings had the potential to become awakened. To practice walking meditation is to practice living in mindfulness. Mindfulness and enlightenment are one. Enlightenment leads to mindfulness and mindfulness leads to enlightenment.

The Miracle is Walking on Earth

Walking with ease and with peace of mind on the earth is a wonderful miracle. Some people say that only walking on burning coals or walking on spikes or on water are miracles, but I find that simply walking on the earth is a miracle. Neige Marchand, when translating The Miracle of Mindfulness into French, entitled the book La Miracle, C'est de Marcher sur Terre. I like that title very much.

Imagine that you and I were two astronauts. We have landed on the moon, and we find that we cannot return to earth because the engine of our ship is broken beyond repair. We will run out of oxygen before the control center on earth can send another ship up to rescue us. We know that we have only two more days to live. What would you and I think of, other than going back to our dear green planet and walking side by side, in peace and without worries? Only when confronted with death do we know the precious value of our steps on the green planet.

Now let's imagine ourselves as those astronauts who have somehow survived their experience. Let's celebrate our happiness and our joy at being able to walk on our dear earth again. We manifest this miracle in each of our steps. Lotus flowers bloom as we walk.

Maintain your practice, aware that your steps are creating miracles. The earth appears before your eyes as something miraculous. With that correct understanding, with that meditative thought, you will achieve blissful steps on this planet earth.

Stand on one foot, and be aware that it is resting upon the earth; see the great sphere upon which it rests. See it clearly – how wonderfully round it is. While walking, look down and anticipate the ground where you are about to place your foot, and when you do, mindfully experience your foot, the ground, and the connection between your foot and the ground. Think of your foot as an Emperor's seal.

In the meditation hall, while doing kinhin (walking meditation) remember 'The Emperor's Seal', or 'Lotus flowers blooming', or 'The earth appears' as themes of your walking meditation.

Monday, March 19, 2012

Living and Dying

It seems as if Death is a journey, but one that you are forced to take alone when you really might not want to do that.  Maybe you are sick and would like your mother, spouse, or a very close loving caring nurturing friend to come with you.  But you can't.  You have to try to prepare and board that vessel all alone.

A friend of mine gave me The Tibetan Book of LIving and Dying by Sogyal Rinpoche.  At first I didn't like that it forces me to look at death so much.  Too depressing.  Why would anyone want to look at this all the time?  Daily, Sogyal Rinpoche seems to imply!  I keep thinking that if I look daily, I'll miss the good things in life.  I'll sit sadly one day thinking how much time I wasted dwelling on death. 



(artwork from   Goran Druskovic (~goran-d - on DeviantART.com)
http://goran-d.deviantart.com/art/Life-After-Death-Collision-21425770

This picture reminds me what Sogyal Rinpoche might be trying to tell me - that this life is an illusion.  He seems to be saying that the way we normally look at life and commonly ignore thinking about death, we walk through life in ignorance.    Even when he experienced the most bliss (p.46) , his teacher reminded him to be calm and not put any more emphasis on this over any other experience in life.  None of it is inherently good or bad.  But the way we look at events in life, we give them too much power.  They are an illusion.  We make these events seem too real.


Journalist Malcolm Browne's photograph of Thích Quảng Đức during his self-immolation.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Self-immolation


If we don't prepare ourselves individually, the illusion will shatter just as we are about to die.  At the moment of death all of the things we had thought were real and would last just a bit longer are no longer available to us.  We cling to them, but there is nothing to hang on to and nothing to grasp them with anymore.  

Imagine you let  someone else pack your suitcase for a long journey and you arrive with no underwear.  Who can you blame?  It's your suitcase.  It's your journey.  You chose to let someone else pack your suitcase. 

I have to ask myself who is packing my suitcase for my final journey?  Sogyal Rinpoche seems to be trying to get me to think seriously about how important it is to prepare for this journey -- the one where I say goodbye to this body, this vessel, this vehicle, and jump, walk, run, float into the abyss.   I feel he is trying to tell me to use every moment to check my itinerary, my luggage, and my packing list.  What have I filled it with?  The only thing I can take with me is thoughts, mind, habits of mind, and habits of thought.  Did I let my parents and teachers fill my mind with thoughts that have gone unchecked but will  come back to haunt me at those critical transitional moments. 

Will I see Jesus, Buddha, Mohammed, or God and not know what to do or say?  Will I scream and cry as if the world has done me wrong because I think I should live just a little bit longer and do it in a way that leaves a scary, useless, helpless, frustrating impression on those around me? 

I don't know with any certainty what will happen when I die.  I don't know why a monk in Vietnam or Tibet would set him or her self on fire and choose to meet death painfully and suddenly.  I do believe that I have to pack my own suitcase.  I have to take full responsibility for my journey.  It is useless for me to blame anyone.  Any thought, idea, or advice others gave me needs to be checked.  I need to use the time I have to check and to practice watching how I react habitually to thoughts that I like and those I don't like.  It's impossible for me to think that I'll be any more capable of controlling my thoughts at death than I can control them in a moment of anger when I'm seething, in a moment of  greed when I'm desiring, a moment of lust or bliss when I'm clinging, a moment of distraction when I'm somewhere else.  I can use life to practice what Sogyal Rinpoche is trying to teach me and I can do it in a way that actually allows me to enjoy life by being a bit more aware of what is really going on around me right now.

I feel like I'm grasping at straws here and have a long way to go but thank you for any thoughts or comments...




(Dreams by ~whisperfall at DeviantArt.com)
http://whisperfall.deviantart.com/art/Dreams-144932089

Biorhythm

Does this help predict how a day will go? I was depressed a few days ago things seem to be getting better now.

Biorhythm
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Saturday, March 17, 2012

I am depressed.

I am depressed.
Who is depressed?
I the awareness around ... me ... ?

I'm seeing things sadly right now, but I know it is temporary.
I know there are people who have it much worse.

Sogyal Rinpoche says that many masters recommend looking at everything as if it is a dream.
It's all impermanent, the bad and good in a dream are not so nerve racking that we have to spend all our energy avoiding the bad and clinging to the good.

Just sitting for a bit with this seems to help too.

Now I'll meditate for 20 minutes and see what thoughts come up.

~ ~ ~

Now thing seem calm. Relaxed. Enjoyable.

I can appreciate simple things. Photographs in my meditation room of teachers and family. Simple designs in thanks hanging on the wall.

Nagging projects and annoying co-workers seem to be more tolerable.

I need to remember this. I need to see if I can carry the feeling (the energy) throughout the day. But I can already feel the positive energy slipping away. The pressure of the rotten routine is waiting to pour back in. Why is the effect of meditation so short lived? What am I missing that would help me feel this calm during the day?

Maybe I need to try fitting in an afternoon meditation.

But is that just masking the real problem? Like taking a pill to kill the pain rather than working to remove the root cause of the pain?

Am I depressed, really?

Can a great teacher give me information or tools to erase or cope with this state of mind?

Is it all up to me?

Simple joys

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Depression.

Depression.
Don't care.
Tired
Bored.
Nothing matters.
Retreat.
Hide
Avoid.
Hostile.
Nobody can help.
Alone.
On my own.
It's up to me.
Lazy.
Lethargic
Weak.